Listen

I just wanted someone who can comfort me

when I'm lonely.

And K said that it was dangerous to think that way because I might get hurt.

And she also said that it is too silly to feel lonely when I have such a good friends.

And she said that someone who say they are lonely actually enjoys that they are feeling that loneliness.

I know that was excuse for ignoring my text message.

How much effort do I need to comfort somone?

I just need to say that

Don't worry. I also have felt that way before.
But everything is going to be fine.

It dosen't take much time or money.

If I can comfort anyone with saying these words
I'll be willing to do that without any hesistitation.

It's not that I'm upset that she had ignored my message.
I just can't stand that she is using that kind of logic(which is rubbish) to justify herself.
If she ignored me because she didn't like me
that was fine with me
but if that was the reason behind what she did, I just can't forgive her.

By the way, I feel thankful for Rose
for listening to what I said.
Giving me comfort.

Thank you.

Les oiseaux vont mourit au Perou

I can't sleep.

I wish I could speak French.
I read a book "Les oiseaux vont mourit au Perou."(Birds go to Peru to die)
In Korean, of course.
There are 16 short stories in a book.
I couldn't pick favorite one.
But I liked "Un humaniste","Le faux","Le mur"
(An humanist),(The forged),(The Wall)

"The wall" was about a man die of broken heart as he felt miserable by the moaning sound of beautiful lady who was by the next room.
The wall between two room was really thin.
and the young man mistaken that the moaning sound was from sexual pleasure she had with some other man.
In fact the sound was from fatal pain; she was poisoning herself to death.
So the young man's death was tragedy of co-incidents.

The novel reminds me of lingering presense of death.
It was everywhere with me when I was at the school.
And when I heard that there was a lump in my stomach and it could be cancer.
Human's life can be so meaningless and light.
(Don't worry about the lump I've taken a surgury successfully and I'm fine now.)

I went to cocktail bar

I met my friends today
I went to family restaurant with Inoc, Heran,Soun.
Restaurant gave away free fried chicken while waiting for the line
There were many people in the restaurant.
so we wait for around thirty minute.
We had winter limited memu.
It was generally not bad.
Pasta was too spicy but salad was good.


Secondly,we went to cocktail bar.
I had pink lemonade.
I don't remember others'cocktail,
but Heran had a strong one.


Soun and Heran went to same girl university.
I forget about the fact and I asked them about ratio of male and female in their school.
They get miffed for a moment.
Then we burst into laughter.


It was good to meet them
But the wheather was too cold.
When we went out of the indoor we shivered a lot.
Once I even slipped and fall.The snow made the road slippery.


Inoc and Heran drank cocktail with alchol
Oc get slightly drunk and she spoke less
Heran was good at drinking, so she was fine.
As inoc get drunk we often fall into slience.
Then anyone that found the slience akward laughed
and we countinue talking.


Heran had new boyfriend.
Heran is nice-looking so it was not surprising to hear that they have boyfriend.


It was first time for me to go to cocktail bar.
It was a meaningful experience.
I also had valuable time with my friends.
It was unique to spend the end of the year with alchol and friends.
But I liked it anyway.