I can't sleep
I write in Korean beause some thoughts are really hard to express in English
Korean is the language that I use in my mind and...
Actually, I don't really exactly speak in my mind, images and feelings just naturally emerge in my mind.
But when I use languges, first language I use is Korean...well...most of the time...
haha
So i was really utterly lonely yesterday and the day before.
But then... Now I'm all right.
With all my friends and family by myside
I felt less...I solated.
I'm going to private language academies (that is the name used in Korea)... or English tuition center...It is locates in almost center of Souel.
It is in Ap-gu-jung street and this is place where they have lots of salones that Korean Actors and Stars patronize.
It is really quite in the morning and noon
and It gives the impression of emptiness and...bleakness
So when you walk along the streets in It can make you to feel really ....I can't find the expression....lonely?
And when it comes to academy,
I think people gets closer as they do group studying.
But I'm in the class where people no longer need to do group studying.
So I really feel lonely
and Koreans are a bit offensive and always like to be in group.
So I make effort to not to do anything conspicious. So that i can bland into crowds
People in other country (except for Japan ...maybe) will never understand this- but things can turn out to be really tiresome when you get out of other's eye when every one is in group except for me.
So I feel pretty isolated and lonely.
Reminds me of 'Lost in Translation'
I write in Korean beause some thoughts are really hard to express in English
Korean is the language that I use in my mind and...
Actually, I don't really exactly speak in my mind, images and feelings just naturally emerge in my mind.
But when I use languges, first language I use is Korean...well...most of the time...
haha
So i was really utterly lonely yesterday and the day before.
But then... Now I'm all right.
With all my friends and family by myside
I felt less...I solated.
I'm going to private language academies (that is the name used in Korea)... or English tuition center...It is locates in almost center of Souel.
It is in Ap-gu-jung street and this is place where they have lots of salones that Korean Actors and Stars patronize.
It is really quite in the morning and noon
and It gives the impression of emptiness and...bleakness
So when you walk along the streets in It can make you to feel really ....I can't find the expression....lonely?
And when it comes to academy,
I think people gets closer as they do group studying.
But I'm in the class where people no longer need to do group studying.
So I really feel lonely
and Koreans are a bit offensive and always like to be in group.
So I make effort to not to do anything conspicious. So that i can bland into crowds
People in other country (except for Japan ...maybe) will never understand this- but things can turn out to be really tiresome when you get out of other's eye when every one is in group except for me.
So I feel pretty isolated and lonely.
Reminds me of 'Lost in Translation'
My situation is that everyone seems to keep to themselves. I am always surprised to see people laughing together like good friends, maybe it is because they live on campus and I don't.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, loneliness is universal. I have eight siblings and still feel lonely at home.
Mariana! It's really good to see your comment here on my blog. I was just about to erase this post, but upon seeing your comment, I had to change my mind!
ReplyDeleteYes, loneliness is universal. I agree.
Do you know Japanese? I was surprised to see my name (it is spelled "Marianna" by the way...everyone has trouble with my name, don't know why, so don't worry about it). I, myself, have been taking Japanese ever since my sophomore or junior year in high school. Can't say I am very good at it. I am dying to learn Korean. The have Korean courses at Brown University, I can only imagine the cost...scary. Ivy League schools are a fraud, you're just paying for their reputation.
ReplyDeleteI can read japanese alphabets, Gatakana. I went to Japanese academy for three month and learnt basic Japanese and daily expressions. It was fun, but I had to stop studying it because I had to learn other foreign language: Chinese and English. So I've forgotten most it, and Hiragana and Gatakana is what I have left.HaHa!
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